January 15, 2019

My idea of a perfect moment is one that stimulates all of my senses at once – but gently, without surprises. A perfect balance is nearly impossible to plan, but occasionally it just happens.

My favorite example is sitting by a crackling fire, squished between friends on a couch, sipping hot tea, with someone softly …

January 14, 2019

Not all autistics are oblivious to body language. I’m not.

I can tell exactly when a raised eyebrow means I’ve done something odd, a startled glance means I’ve spoken in an irregular rhythm, or a confused look means I’ve spouted too many ideas with too little context.

But I rarely know what to do about …

January 14, 2019

There were a lot of things I didn’t realize as a teenager.

It wasn’t anyone’s fault. There simply wasn’t enough awareness about autism – true awareness from actual autistics. There’s more now, but still not enough, and I’m trying to help change that.

As a teenager, I didn’t realize how large the gap was between …

January 10, 2019

A few times, I’ve lost my ability to speak. It only happens during the most intense emotions (good or bad), and never lasts long.

But this “selective mutism” has shown me, very briefly, what it feels like to be nonverbal. It’s enough to make me wonder what life would be like if I ever lost …

January 9, 2019

Two years ago, I was diagnosed as autistic. It seemed to explain all the mysteries of my life, and it helped me find better words to describe my experiences. Since then, many parents have told me that my writing helps them understand their kids better.

On the one hand, this encourages me a lot. Understanding …

January 6, 2019

Many autistics find eye contact painful. I usually don’t. It’s the multitasking that gets to me.

I can only do two of these things at once: Look, listen, plan.

If I look and listen but don’t plan, then I’ll hear what you’re saying, but won’t have a response ready when you stop talking.

If I …

January 6, 2019

I’m smart. I can learn anything.

But if the information is new to me, I can’t absorb it quickly. I need time to mull – to turn it round and round in my mind, letting it sink in deeply.

As new knowledge permeates my thoughts over days and weeks, I can begin to make connections …

December 9, 2018

How to be me at a party:

Step 1: Stand around awkwardly for an hour, wincing at the noise and accidentally being in everyone’s way.

Step 2: Start an interesting conversation (or string of conversations).

Step 3: Oops, where did the past three hours go? 😛

Then head home and take time to recharge!…

December 6, 2018

My grocery store has new shopping carts! They go smoothly and silently around corners, like a mermaid swishing and swiveling through a maze of coral.

When something gets easier on a sensory level, it gets easier on an intellectual level too. I made all my decisions much faster without the distraction of forceful turns and …

December 6, 2018

For most of my life, all I knew about autism was that it’s a disability that sometimes causes kids to rock back and forth.

I learned most of that from a bumper sticker, which said: “My autistic kid rocks – colloquially and kinesthetically!”

That was accurate, but incomplete. I wish I’d also known that:

    Autism